I'M BACK BITCHESSSSSSSS :)

I'm trying to get back into my blog and back into just fucking caring about food. Don't get my wrong.....I always think about food....but I think my constant failures is what has kept me from continuing my dedication to blogging. I'm just a big FAT LOSER. Ugh

Well a bunch of legal shit is going on and SHOCKER I'm in trouble again. Great. Fucking great. I'm so pissed/sad/embarrassed etc etc that I don't wanna even talk about it. However, I decided that if from now on i have no life I have no excuse to be 155 pounds. No reason. I have been maintaining thank god but I'm still a horrid fat ass. I bought a bikini for inspiration at target last night. I DON'T EVER WEAR bikini's. Never have. It looked horrendous. If I wasn't afraid of blinding you all I'd posit it. But no worries. In due time I will post a pic. At 145 I will post a pic. And every ten pounds there after.

Today's plan is:

Bfast: Coffee - 50 cals
Lunch: Nothing
Dinner: Jug-o-wine and probably I few chips......lol

I know I know....wine and chips?? U FATASS. However, due to my recent legal issues Friday nights are the only night I see a friend and so I don't care to hang with a good friend and have some wine and relax. And plus I'm always lower the next morning anyways after I drink. :) It has been killing me though not having my scale with me. I only get to weigh on the weekend with it and it fucking sucks. My goal for Monday is 153. Let's do this.

Ive really been getting into cooking lately. I have never really cared for the white brick type of tofu but I have been reading up on different recipes and have been making certain items and OMFG I AM IN LOVE. Tofu is amazing! And so good for you! Last night I made tofu sloppy joes and tofu Parmesan (tofu is supposed to be "eggplant") and holy shit it was delicious! I will def post some recipes and pictures when I get the chance. I didn't take pics of what I made last night but I am starting a scrap book of the masterpieces I make so I will have to show u what consumes my every thought: Food and Cooking. haha. Surprised? Didn't think so.

Well I have like shit to do at work and it is going to be sooo boring so I'm sure I will be posting later.

XXOO