Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I'm Fucking DONE.

I'm Done, I'm Done, I'm FUCKING DONE. It's pathetic when your fat jeans are tight. It's pathetic when you look like a god damn bloated pig in every picture. It's pathetic when you want to throw your scale out the window because it TELLS YOU The TRUTH: YOU'RE A HOG JAMIE. It's pathetic that I have let myself get this bad. It's pathetic that I can't just starve. I'm just a fat pathetic worthless piece of lard on this earth that needs to be shot in the head.

It's All Over.

I'm totally fat, I hate myself. As of today, I am making a huge life change.

1. I'm on the wagon. ABSOLUTELY NO MORE ALCOHOL. PERIOD.
2. I am never eating over 200 cals again. I don't care what fucking holiday it is. Food today means fat tomorrow.
3. If I can't workout, I don't eat a damn thing. I don't deserve food.
4. My daily outifts will consist of XL boys white tees and sweat pants or jeans. I am too ugly to wear my clothes.
5. I am no longer allowed to physically see anyone besides my family or co-workers until I loose twenty pounds. I am too fat to be in the space of friends.
6. I am not allowed to go outside in the day time except for work. No one like to see every ripple of a fatty.
7. No More binging and puking. My teeth are rotting as we speak.

So far that is all I can come up with. I'm sure I'll think of more.

Anyone have any other ideas? I need some serious advice and help ladies. I'm doomed to be a fat stuipd bitch my whole life. Please, someone, lend me your hand and your help. Get me THIN.

Jamie
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5 comments:

  1. KellyJune 30, 2009 at 11:55 AM

    you aren't doomed

    it just takes some time and effort, you'll get there, just keep trying

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  2. DorothyJune 30, 2009 at 12:07 PM

    I'm sure you will succeed! Don't give up!

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  3. *~*June 30, 2009 at 12:38 PM

    you are worth it, you deserve to be thin. you can totally do this.

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  4. slowly fadingJune 30, 2009 at 4:06 PM

    i totally know how you feel like now... our situations may be totally different, but i totaly feel your pain.... I'm having to make a complete lifestyle switch as well, in a different way then u, but it's still hard for me.... maybe we can help each other stick to our comitments..... write me when you have the time - i miss hearing from you.... and remember you CAN do this.... we can both get through our different situations together and come out stronger and thinner then ever

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  5. AnonymousJuly 1, 2009 at 2:06 AM

    i know how you feel
    hang in there, things will look up after a while
    stay strong bud

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